I suck.

Busy bee.

I have been so busy and have had no time to update. Its crazy busy around here, and I've been so overtired lately. I just want to sleep. I have no energy or anything. It SUCKS!! So anyways, I still need to call the bariatric surgeon to make an appointment, they're supposed to call me.. but its been a few weeks and they havent called me. I need to seize the day!

I've been thinking about joining weight watchers.. before I have the surgery.. just to help me out and monitor what I'm eating, but really that would just be throwing money down the drain, because it doesnt work. I really don't like diets cause they change a lot.. and what you were doing for awhile was the right way to diet, then 3 months later.. its wrong. Its just stupid, even weight watchers "the non diet" is like that. Ridiculousssss.

I havent been on Lapbandtalk.com in days, I'm gonna go check in now, to see if anything new is going on.. that site is great, it is so imformational. I love it.. it has a totally wonderful support system.

More..

So I recieved my insurance letter, and I guess the only reason I wasnt approved was because the request for the surgery did not come from the bariatric surgeon, so after I have an appointment made with him, and he sends in all the stuff, I will be approved according to the letter. It was a bit confusing. I wish the insurance people had told me the letter needed to come from the bariatric surgeon, it would have helped. Hmmmmm. Oh well.

Hopefully, I will be back in Massachusetts to have the surgery. That would be great. I just want to go home so badly.

The new job is good, but I'm so afraid the kids are going to make fun of me for my weight, I would be so embarassed about it. I hate that I'm overweight, I always feel so self concious,, I wish I wasntt.

Exhaustion.

I started my new job today, it was really fun.. but really tiring. Little kids are so loud and hyper. I like working with them but man, it is a tough job.

I am still waiting approval form insurance.

Tomorrow I go to the seminar. Woot.

Waiting.. and waiting..

Called the insurance again, yesterday and plan to do so again in a few minutes. I'm trying to stay on top of things with them to make sure the minute they don't approve me I can start again and send it all in a different way, or the minute they do approve me I can start making plans and all that jazz. The seminar is approaching! Tuesday night 7pm. I want to ask questions, but I'll probably get all nervous about it, but seriously who cares I should just do it.



I got the new job I wanted, I start monday! It is basically exactly what I want to do with my life except a bit different, not bad.

Oh well thats all.

Insurance is LAME.

I went to the doctor yesterday, and talked about the LAPBAND stuff, and what we needed to send, and he surprised me and said he had already sent it in Friday when I called to set up the appointment. So he sent what we think we need to send to the insurance. I hope its right, but if its not we'll just try again and send whatever they need. I know I am the perfect candidate and meet all the requirements, its just phrasing it right is what they're looking for. Insurance is ridiculous.

I called then insurance this morning, but apparently youre not allowed to speak with the medical review board, that they contact you. I was like OK....... LOL. Weird. They really are not helpful whatsoever. I was asking about the deductible and how much was covered. The lady was like oh, well you need to be approved first. I was like yea, I know I submitted all that. I was just wondering what I would need to pay, so I can start saving and getting stuff together. GEEEEEZ. Yea, so insurance is annoying. I was reading other peoples insurance stuff on LapbandTalk, and every case is so different, but I wish BCBS was just the same all over, cause it can be very confusing.. reading on BCBS story and then another and they are completely different. I just dont get it at all.

Well theres nothing else to say, unless I get more info from insurance, but that is not likely. I bet they say I'm not a good candidate and I dont have what they need and deny me the surgery, which would really really suck. I have my heart set on it.

MAGIC BULLET

The past two days I have really done nothing, but be on the LAPBAND forum. I'm really interested in those peoples stories and what to do and what not to do with the band. I also read up on different things for after surgery.. one imparticular. The Magic Bullet.

It looks cool and I would only use it for smoothies/shakes.. so I wouldnt have to worry about the meat not grinding right or whatever.

I also priced different protein powders at the grocery store today. I saw shakes and powders, but I don't know if the shakes are for me. All protein stuff is pricey and I dont wanna get stuck with a shake that tastes disgusting. At least with the powder I'd be able to hide the gross taste if there is one.. I should get a smoothie from Jamba Juice and see if you can taste protein powder.

Well thats it for now, more updates tomorrow after I visit my doctor.

First step..

Welcome to my journal, where I will be keeping an online account of my weight loss journey. My name is Jean. I am 19 years old living in UTAH (not by my own choice) I will be moving back to Massachusetts before this year is done. I like a variety of things. I enjoy who I am most days.. and lets just say I have an obsession with the television show LOST.


Sometime last year I heard about the LAPBAND. I was intrigued, being heavy all my life, and not being able to lose weight.. I decided maybe I should look into surgery. I started researching the LAPBAND and found I really liked what I read about it. Now I had to deal with finding out how I was going to pay for it. Insurance, was the only way I could do it financially, but at the time my insurance (BCBS AL) did not cover it.. but it covered basically all of the other WLS on the market, so lets just say I was a bit ticked. I gave up for sometime.. then As the new year rang in, I decided I really needed to do something about my weight, so I went back to the forum to look into other options and found out that now my insurance does cover the LAPBAND. WOOPEE! I thought. I am truly so excited about it.

My next steps are to meet with the doctor on my monday and have him send in all my medical criteria and wait for approval for my surgery from insurance. I will attend my first BIG STEP on January 15th for the seminar. I'm a bit nervous about all of this, but I want to be healthy and I want this surgery and the tool it will provide me. =]